			   THE HARSH REALITY OF LIFE

			       by Craig Neidorf
			       kl@stormking.com

January 18-19, 1992 marked the two-year anniversary of my visit from and
subsequent raid by the United States Secret Service, Southwestern Bell
Security, and the University of Missouri Police Department.

The publicity and attention that once surrounded United States v. Craig Neidorf
has long been over, and; for most people involved life has returned to normal
and those events are history.

Unfortunately things are not quite as simple for me.

After my trial concluded, I went back to school at the University of Missouri,
and hit the books hard.  I earned a 4.0 (straight A average) that semester,
focusing on political science and pre-law courses.  I did almost as well the
following spring and summer semesters.  I graduated on August 2, 1991.

However, my legal bills remained very high.  In fact, my parents and I still
owe close to $50,000.

I have always been uncomfortable with the idea of actually making a direct
appeal to people to send donations in to my defense fund, but over the last
year and a half, my idealism about the future has faded and been replaced with
reality.

At the end of my trial, my legal fees totaled about $108,000 and this figure
does not include travel expenses in going back and forth to Chicago from St.
Louis and Columbia or any other related expenditures that I had to make during
that 7 month period.

- This figure does not include the money I lost by having to drop most of my
  classes at the University of Missouri that semester because I could not
  consistently attend class during my ordeal.

- This figure does not reflect the pain and suffering that my family and I
  were put through by a malicious and ignorant prosecutor and other similarly
  unpleasant people at Bellsouth, Illinois Bell, Bellcore, and AT&T.

- This figure does not include the traumatic incidents of my suspension from
  the Zeta Beta Tau fraternity or the threats of expulsion I received from the
  Chancellor's office of the University of Missouri.

- And finally this figure does not include the additional $900 I had to spend
  to finally get my arrest records expunged.  That fee could and should have
  been avoided altogether except as with the trial, William Cook (the assistant
  U.S. attorney) opposed my motion for expungement and so several more motions
  and court appearances were necessary for me to achieve victory.

The number one MYTH about my legal fees is that they were paid by the
Electronic Frontier Foundation.  This is complete fiction.  Although I appeared
to have been somewhat of a spokesperson and "poster-child" for the EFF
throughout 1990 and 1991, and despite what you may have read anywhere else,
there were no monetary contributions granted to me by that organization.  NONE.
There was a private and very generous donation made by Mitch Kapor personally,
but this is separate from the EFF.

EFF did pay for some legal motions to be filed in my case regarding the First
Amendment, but since these motions were denied, they impacted only slightly on
the outcome of my trial.  The most beneficial outcome of the EFF's involvement
with my case was the general increase in awareness in the community at large to
the issues my case presented.

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Well more than a year has passed since the day my trial ended...

My entire life savings that I had stored for college and law school was needed
as a downpayment on my legal fees and my parents of course had to give up most
of their savings as well.  A payment plan was arranged over what looks to be a
10 year period.  We had no choice, but to accept that these were the cards life
had dealt us and after all things could be much worse.  I have my health and my
freedom (such as it is) and such things are worth more than money.

However, I am a young person starting out in life.  I have applied to several
law schools across the country, both public and private.  Unfortunately, after
reviewing my financial options, I have discovered that the expense of a legal
education may now place it very far beyond my means.

Like a very large number of Americans, the recession has hit home, putting my
father out of work and keeping my mother in a job beneath her talents.

It seriously pains me to have to do this, but trust me when I tell you that
I've thought about this for a long time.  I need YOUR HELP to get my legal
bills paid.  I need to be able to live my life without this debt hanging over
my head.  There are at least 343 people on the Phrack emailing list alone:  If
each person only contributed $30 it would save me over $10,000.  You see
helping me out is not beyond the reach of our community if we all work
together.  Consider it an investment in your future, because what happened to
me can happen to anyone and with a legal education I'll be back to return the
favor.

If you find that you can afford to help me, you have my most sincere thanks and
appreciation.  I know a lot of you are in tight financial situations like me
and can sympathize with what I am going through.  If you are unable to help me
because you are having problems of your own then you have my sympathy as well.

Please make checks or money orders payable to:  Katten, Muchin, & Zavis

Send them to:  Sheldon Zenner
	       Katten, Muchin, & Zavis
	       525 West Monroe Street
	       Suite 1600
	       Chicago, Illinois 60606-3693

And do not forget to write my name in the memo section or enclose a letter
explaining what the check is for.  If you neglect to do that, KMZ will not
credit my account for the amount of the check.

PS - I'd also appreciate any tips or leads on potential sources of financial
     aid, grants, and scholarships available for an aspiring law student.
