Article for SOD #1 Written by Pazuzu - 09/18-09/20 1993 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ NOTE: To avoid any and all confusion, let me state RIGHT NOW that this publication is not in any way connected with DnA Magazine. Do not assume by the fact that some of the same people write for DnA and SOD that they are connected, because they aren't. Anyway, I had serious trouble coming up with a title for this article, because there's so much I want to include in it, so I just settled on "Article for SOD #1". I have finally found what I've been looking for since I was very young in a magickal system. I've been trying to find a magickal system that works for me for a long time, without too much success. I looked through a bunch of stuff on wicca, decided that was too limiting. I tried a lot of the Golden Dawn rituals, and those worked, sure enough. But afterwards, I was too tired to enjoy any of the effects, and anyway the idea of going through three hour rituals is not appealing to me. I tried many other things as well, too numerous to go into here. Then about two months ago, Vandal proposed the idea of putting up an occult section on my BBS. I jumped at this idea - I had been wanting an occult section for a long time, but I couldn't find any interest in it. So we put the occult section up, and he started uploading a lot of files on a type of magick I had never heard of - Chaos Magick. I started reading the files he had uploaded and eventually decided that this is what I had been looking for all this time. Now I had to find more information, so Vandal took care of that by giving me a copy of Liber Null & Psychonaut by Peter Carroll. I am just beginning my studies in Chaos Magick, and my progress is made much slower by a lot of christian dogma that is ingrained in my subconscious. I have come to one major conclusion (which should come as no surprise to anyone involved in this type of thing...): IN ORDER TO HAVE ANY SUCCESS IN ANY MAGICK (ESPECIALLY CHAOS), YOU MUST REMOVE ALL RELIGIOUS DOGMA (ESPECIALLY CHRISTIAN) FROM YOUR CONSCIOUS AND SUBCONSCIOUS MIND. You see, I was raised christian. Hardcore. I went to a christian school starting at kindergarten and all the way through until I was a sophomore in high school. I had always thought that there was a lot wrong with a lot of the christian teachings. Even as a little kid of 7, I thought the teaching that drugs (especially natural ones like marijuana and mushrooms) were EVIL and would get you sent to hell was a bunch of shit, even though I had never taken any drugs, and at that point didn't think I ever would. It never once says anywhere in the bible that drugs are bad. It says that alcohol IN EXCESS is bad, but never once says drugs are bad. And then there's the whole issue of sex. Now, christian teachings say that sex with anyone you're not married to is evil, but never once explains WHY this is so. I mean, other things that are claimed to be evil are all explained, like murder, it's OBVIOUS why it's bad. But not this sex thing. I can't see any reason why sex, as long as the people involved are consenting and willing, and proper precautions are followed, can be deemed evil. It has no harmful effects. I think it's all a control thing. The bible was written by some control freak who wanted to control people through his writings, and he succeeded on a grand scale - he's long dead, and his writing STILL controls millions of people's lives. I am making progress toward de-programming myself, but it is somewhat difficult because a lot of it is buried in the subconscious. I have fairly recently found something that speeds the process up - and that brings me to my next topic... On October 11, 1992 at about 6pm PST, I committed a very serious crime. I tried to commit suicide. Well, that's what I would be charged with under California state law. Actually, I took my first LSD trip. Granted, the trip was rather unfocused and chaotic since my "guide" for the trip is a total twit even when sober and at the time he was on three tabs - but, I realized that LSD (and most likely many other chemicals as well) is a very powerful force for removing mental blocks. The sheer number of problems I was able to resolve and the amount of new ideas I came up with during the trip was truly astounding. It's a shame I didn't have the sense to write them down! I have since taken several trips with much more positive results. The occult benefits of using these chemicals must be truly amazing. I haven't tried using chemicals for occult purposes yet, but I shall be attempting this soon... Vandal, Dos Kia and I have planned to release Liber LSD, Liber MDMA, and Liber N20 detailing our findings sometime in the near future. Well that about wraps it up for this article. I have to go work on some stuff for DnA now, but I'll be writing at least one article per issue for SOD. Look for Issue #2 coming soon. We are the only Digital Occult magazine I've seen out there, and we hope this will help some travellers on the devil's road... Until next time... >> EOF <<