_____ | | _____ _____ _______ | |___| |---| `---._____ `| | | _ | | | | _ | | | | | | | | | | --------------------------------------- | | | | | | | | | --------------------------------------- | | | | | | | | | .. [ Luna Digizine ] .. ____ |____ |___| |___` | `---' `---- `---' `---' -------------------------------------------------------------------------- Luna Digizine Volume 1, Issue 4 - Copyright Gerritt Baer / Luna 1996 Luna is a textfile publication that may be distributed freely, anywhere, in any form as long as the contents herein remain unchanged. " love is, within my reach .. love is, what i got " - sublime -------------------------------------------------------------------------- (A) %% welcome Hello there, welcome again to luna, issue four. So far the response hasn't been bad, I guess some people don't think I suck that bad. A lots been going on in my life, well, a lot is always going on in my life. I guess thats good, I won't have any trouble coming up with things to write on. But it's begining to take its tole on me, one of these days I'm gonna take a vacation, Chrismas I guess. A couple people have asked me why I release so frequently, well, my mood changes so frequently that I have to. If I spent like a month on one issue I would be going back over and over it nitpicking and taking out half the stuff I wrote. I usually write each issue in one sitting. They're not that big anyway. Anywho, get readin, if you want. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- _________ ___ ________ ____ ________ __________________ | __)____| |------- `------.__________ `| | | _ | | | _ _ | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | | _______ |_______ |______| |______` | `------`------'------`------'------`------'------`------' %% table of contents A :: welcome 1 :: she saved my life, again -- (story) 2 :: wheres all the mean ppl? -- (comment) 3 :: these people are stupid -- (comment) 4 :: basting for you -- (poem) Z :: closing -------------------------------------------------------------------------- (1) %% she saved my life, again as i stood there, a slight breeze blowing my hair, i couldnt help but to think of her. the one who started it all. the one who passes through my mind ten thousand times a second. shes standing right behind me. i cant see her face but i can feel her presence. i dont even know her name, damn, i wish i could say hello. why am i so weak. does she know me? oh no, here she comes. walking along, as an angel in flight. not an angel, a girl, just a girl. like all the others, they steal my heart without even knowing it, and shatter it by my own demeanor. whats this? shes signaling for me! why? what do i have that she should want, perhaps its money, or she wants to make fun of me.. thats gotta be it. hello .. i say, trying not to sound to pitiful. i usually do. why do you always sit by yourself? she asks in a neutral tone, .. come sit with us. ok .. i answer in a hushed tone. whats going on? why is she doing this, do they enjoy my presence? what do i bring to the group but taken space. but perhaps, just perhaps, she wants me to sit with her, naw, that cant be it. maybe ill get lucky someday, maybe ill be myself, maybe this is that day. maybe not. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- (2) %% wheres all the mean people? Yeah, where are they!? I've met a lot of people, and most of them are pretty nice people. Not angstful youths, not psycho gangsters, none of that. I think all you people who complain about everyone being jerks are so stuck to one side of the social spectrum when you try and confront those people who you think are mean, they see how extreme you are from them and treat you bad. I can get along with anyone. From drunken black bums to nail through the head hardcore punkers. I don't try and be something im not when I talk to people. Now there are some circumstances that just plain don't work like for instance, I couldn't just walk into s.c.la and befriend everyone. But I most likely woudln't get myself into any trouble. How is that possible? Well, I don't start any trouble. When you walk into s.c.la with baggy jeans, dark glassed and your hat on backwards, your not going to get a warm reception, especially if your white. However, if you walk in there like a normal person, smile and say hello to people, your likely to make friends with the locals instead of being a target. People by nature are not animals, don't treat them that way. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- (3) %% these people are stupid Recently while scanning the web I came across this little tidbit and it made me really depressed. This is like 1/5 of the whole article, but it will give you an idea of what kind of people are out there. Just a note to anyone who cares, im a Christian and dont do pot and I just want to say that this kind of extreme crap makes me sick. It's just a bunch of quaker crazies that want to relate everything to satan. These people are morons. -- begin bs -- Through the innocently appearing guise of the "Natural Herbal High" called marijuana, satan has found an open doorway for invasion into the minds of millions of people. many a deceived christian has lost their salvation in christ through this deceptive device of the one whose purpose is to kill, steal, and destroy. the deceptive reasoning that satan uses is this: "god made plants for the benefit of man, marijuana is a plant, therefore god made it for the benefit of man. it opens up a person's mind so that they can flow in the spirit." the truth is that the spirit which this plant opens one up to is the spirit of the devil. this "innocent natural high" is really just the bait that the devil uses to captivate the soul (mind, will and emotions). the devil is the master of deception!!! read some case histories of those in mental wards, most of them started out so "innocently" on marijuana. -- end bs -- And it goes on to talk about how pot is related to witchcraft, which by the way didn't make any sense, there was not one single even remotely direct relationship they even represented in the whole article. I think they also wrote an article on how to churn butter and fix a broken wagon wheel too, hmm :) -------------------------------------------------------------------------- (4) %% basting for you get off of my back cant start the attack scared to fight i know what is right i fight for me im basting for you you make it sound like im failing i just cant stop caring it will effect you, you say i say fuck it, its nothing im just basting for you -------------------------------------------------------------------------- (Z) %% closing wee, that one was more fun to write than the others. i dunno why, maybe im getting better at this writing thing. -------------------------------------------------------------------------- eeyore (gerritt baer) can be contacted via email (oceans@gate.net) or snailmail (1189 hillsboro mile #6, hillsboro beach fl 33062). --------------------------------------------------------------------------